I am now back to introspection. I want to do something with my life. Something decent. Something I can be proud of. Sometimes i want to be academic, sometimes not. And i dont know what it is that I want after all. I want direction. And then conviction in that direction. Courage to keep up my conviction and then a result that will satisfy me. I want to stop meandering. I want to gather some moss. Or rather some moxie. I want to do something with my life.